.one more month

Our big day is coming and we are slowly working on preparing for it.

I’m preparing mentally and emotionally. Hoping I won’t be so sore for so long after giving birth this time around. And those post partum hormones made me an anxious mess for the longest time. I won’t let that happen again ok? This time I know what’s coming, so I’ll take control over my anxieties. I’ll breathe in deeply and relax and take care of this baby without feeling like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I’ll breathe out slowly and I won’t let myself be overwhelmed with all the bodily leaking and soreness and hair falling out problems that will come. 

This time I know it won’t last forever.

And if none of this preparation does any good… at least I know that the end result will be worth going through it all again.

  

Air told me that he is preparing to take Ames off my hands as much as he possibly can, and to cook and clean as much as he possibly can. We are both extremely hopeful that he will have good enough health and endurance to make it through the delivery with me without passing out… he gets so dizzy these days with his anemia. Lets all pray for him ok?

 

I’ll have you know that Ames is preparing too... maybe even more than the rest of us. He loves to tell everyone about his baby sister whenever possible. He will give my belly big hugs and kisses and tickles. He plays with his cars and toys on my belly to keep her involved (happening as I type this).

We gave him a baby dolly a few weeks ago that he adores and attends to with as much love and kindness as you could ever expect from a two year old. We call her Practice Sister.

This is gonna be great!

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These last few months have been a whirlwind. Air has been on short term disability since July and it’s been so different to have him around so much. It’s been a strange transition for him to go from being completely stressed out and busy with work 24/7, to having a completely different kind of stress and just trying to keep our family afloat. It’s actually been really nice to have Air around every day, of course it would be better if he weren’t so sick, and it would be better still if we didn’t have this uncertain future/doomsday thing sort of looming over us. If you asked us right now where we’ll be and what we’ll be doing five months from now, we would have no answer for you. And that’s pretty scary.

At least we know we’ll still have our little family, plus one more little girl who we can’t wait to meet.

We have been lacking a little bit with taking photos and videos lately too! This is probably the worst we’ve done with this ever. Boo…

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↓↓↓We babysat a friend’s fish for a month. Ames enjoyed it a lot, but Air and I were excited to give it back. Guess Air and I aren’t pet people?//Ames loves his chubby little cousin Jake. He always asks to “hold it?” and then he says, “that’s a big one!” haha↓↓↓

 

↓↓↓We finally carpeted our basement this summer and have been in heaven actually having a basement ever since. Ames’s favorite thing is pretending the steps are his bed. Air and I both did this when we were little//We set up an old projector in the basement and enjoy watching all the Disney movies down there↓↓↓

 

↓↓↓Some days you just need to make a recipe that calls for a pound of butter. Salted caramel bars were pretty yummy↓↓↓

 

↓↓↓Ames loves play dough, he especially likes to smash everything I create?//We have a lot of fun at Tam and Jadey’s acreage. They have a perfect fire pit for spending an evening roasting dogs, s’mores, bannock and singing songs with the family↓↓↓

 

↓↓↓We went to a free Edmonton Symphony performance at Churchill Square downtown. They performed all of the best Disney songs and we got to see tons of cute little girls dressed up as princesses↓↓↓

 

↓↓↓Ames loves to “help” us whenever we’re cooking. He usually stands on a stool and tinkers with anything in his reach//Air is seriously an amazing chef, and I am seriously a lucky girl↓↓↓

 

↓↓↓It snowed here on September 8th… that was insane. Luckily it’s melted and warmed up again for now//Ames sure loves his superheroes. He would wear this spiderman shirt every day if I let him… also his Daddy’s lambs wool socks for pants?↓↓↓

 

↓↓↓Ames is a super funny little guy… he is constantly cracking us up around here—coming up with all of his own jokes and shocking us with his understanding of everything. We love our Amesy so much↓↓↓

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